haha, no chocolate cake

I’ve challenged myself with many different types of diet in the past. For months and years, I lasted on diets that were low-fat/calorie, low-carb, focused on macro foods or completely avoided junk food. I went vegetarian/vegan for a few months before I had health implications. And I ate raw food for half a week – this was a short one as I wanted to purge after drinking 3L of raw spinach soup… probably didn’t utilise the possibilities of raw food recipes. I went on these diets/lifestyle changes mostly to challenge and push myself – a case of getting bored one day and being like ‘I don’t want to eat junk food for X amount of time’. Other times it was an attempt to be healthier, explore foods outside my comfort zone or even to lose weight.

In hindsight, my recent no wheat/dairy/soy/nuts diet was among the hardest, if not the hardest, diet I’ve been on. Before I started it, I thought I’d continue to eat as I normally do but substitute minor things. For example, I’d swap my normal cereal and bread with GF alternatives. Since I snack on nuts daily, I’d swap this with more fruit, hummus/carrots and GF muesli bars. Easy.

It got difficult when I realised how these ingredients are hidden in many unsuspecting foods, like Asian stir fries, sushi, salads, anything that has been marinated, all takeaway food etc.

No wheat/gluten

This was the most difficult item to cut out of my diet – I now have massive respect for celiacs and those who are intolerant or sensitive to gluten/wheat. Obviously, gluten is in bread, pasta, flour, cereal and other carby and processed foods. I knew there were GF alternatives so I didn’t worry. I didn’t go too much out of my way to get ingredients for cooking at home mainstream supermarkets stock many GF alternatives, like pasta and cereal. The Freedom Foods brand saved me as they had delicious cereals. Carmans has a good gluten free cereal option as well (with nuts). I bought gluten-free flour and used it in banana bread/cake and it wasn’t much different (see here).

When eating out, some restaurant menus indicate which items are GF – this saved me stress from interrogating waiting staff on how a dish is cooked. Zefferelli’s had a GF menu with pizza and pasta. In Canberra, Deeks Bakery in Pearce and Dickson sells gluten-free baked goods. This sounded like heaven but after analysis of their website, I realised that the majority of their products contained soy, so I would probably only be able to eat one product – yeast, soy & dairy free bread.

Gluten is used as a thickener in many sauces used in salads, stir fries, marinades etc. This made me extremely conscious of everything I ate. When I was on my diet, I often ate from big franchises, such as Sumo Salad that has a website listing allergen information for its salads. Smaller salad bars rarely had info on what items were GF or knowledgeable staff on GF items. I was annoyed that I had to go to franchises over small salad bars, because I prefer to give my buck to small business owners over large franchises – smaller salad bars aren’t into fancy advertising, don’t often ship ingredients across the country just to ensure ‘consistency of quality’ and have more unique salads. I guess beggars can’t be choosers.

My alternative to salads for lunch would be sushi rolls. Obviously I couldn’t eat soft shell crab rolls as flour is used in the deep frying batter. I thought I’d be fine with chicken teriyaki and beef sushi, but the meat is marinated in sauce that has gluten. So I opted for the vegetarian options… oh except tofu (wheat and soy), but I learnt to love avocado rolls.

Having no gluten in my diet mean that I couldn’t eat normal stir fries – my favourite sauces for cooking at home (oyster, soy, hoisin) all had gluten. If I was a celiac, I’d invest in GF substitutes, which apparently exist… somewhere. It was frustrating to go to any Asian restaurant or have stir fries at people’s houses. Most people have no idea gluten is in many stir fry sauces so would look at me in a dumbfounded way when I asked what was GF. I ended up interrogating them about what sauces were used in the dish and asked if they could replace soy sauce etc with fish sauce… oh and sometimes even fish sauce has gluten.

Basically my colleague who’s a celiac said something like ‘basically all you can eat is air… but ignorance is bliss… if you don’t end up with weird side effects or in hospital, it’s okay’.

No dairy/lactose

It wasn’t too difficult to cut out lactose because I already avoid dairy in my normal diet. For example, I avoid cheese (creates congestion problems) and buttery goods. When I strictly cut out dairy, I didn’t eat cheese at work lunches, pizza (OMG), pastries, café sweets, creamy sauces and being wary of butter or cheese in sandwiches etc. Dairy is everywhere.

In my normal diet, I drink soy milk. I know many people who shiver at the thought of drinking soy. I admit – I hated it when I was young, but that’s because my only experience of soy milk was the type from Asian supermarkets that has a strong beany taste. Outside my diet, I usually drunk Soy Good or Soy Milky with cereal and could barely tell the difference from normal milk.

I was always aware there are many alternatives to ‘normal milk’ such as lactose free milk (contains the enzyme lactase that aids people’s digestion of the lactose in milk). There’s also almond milk, oat milk and rice milk (last one is gross in my opinion). The range of options makes me wonder whether milk can be made from other things – potatoes, corn? My avoidance of nuts, soy or dairy meant that there were only two types of milk I could drink – lactose free and rice milk… I think rice milk has a festy perfume-like taste that not even sugary cereal can cover. Lactose free milk it was (see here).

I love chocolate… but in the last year I over indulged in it so it was a good thing that I avoided it. I certainly craved it at times, but would use my imagination just to experience what it’d be like to eat it – taste, smell, texture etc. In an earlier blog entry, I made a lactose-free hot chocolate, with dairy free chocolate, honey and lactose free milk. It cured my cravings!

There are also vegan cheese alternatives, including mascarpone (yay for tiramisu) and tasty cheese.

During my diet, I realised that lactose is a popular ‘filler’ in many many medications. In these scenarios, I couldn’t avoid it.

No soy

In hindsight, why on earth did I avoid soy?!?! I normally don’t eat much meat so I get my protein from meat alternatives such as tofu, vege sausages, patties and vegetarian meat, which unfortunately all contain soy (or wheat). As I was also avoiding nuts, a huge source of protein was missing from my diet.

During my diet, I often felt lethargic – I would try to create some ‘balance’ in my diet by eating some protein. Ironically I ate chicken, chicken and chicken – eventually I grossed myself out.

No nuts

Annoyingly, a lot of gluten-free cereals and snack bars contain nuts. I remember spending at least half an hour in Woolies staring at the health food section, looking at each snack bar one by one and assessing each one according to the stupid ‘criteria’ I had – no nuts, gluten, etc. It was mentally exhausting. Out of about 100 options, I could eat around 5.

Nuts are also included in many vegetarian salads. It’s probably used to give the salad protein and a nice crunchiness. I guess it provides protein that meat normally would.

Combination of the four

Overall it was extremely difficult. I’d often see a snack bar or salad that sounded delicious. I’d get excited and think ‘Omg, I can actually incorporate some flavour into my diet. Potential life saver.’ However the item would exclude only three of the four ingredients and include something like nuts … my dreams and hopes would be crushed again and again.

Indian food was a gem as their sauces don’t often have gluten and it was obvious if there was dairy  (like yogurt or cream). However, most Indian places use ghee, which is clarified butter (dairy)… but sometimes ignorance is bliss.

When I cooked for myself, I mostly ate salads and cooked veges – these were flavoured with home-made citrus dressings, sesame oil or herbs/olive oil.

Ok, I feel like I was just popping my own party balloons. It’s also like I was saying to myself ‘here’s chocolate cake, but haha, you can’t eat it.’ The diet was difficult to maintain as I couldn’t find enough alternatives or substitutes to maintain enough nutrition (and a healthy weight). I was excluded from even the smallest social events and people weren’t always accommodating or supportive. People were itching for me to go back to ‘normal’ for their own convenience and familiarity. But my eczema was itching 100x worse.

Overall, it wasn’t a bad experience. I’m glad I did it because it taught me to eat cleaner and exposed me to foods that I wouldn’t normally eat.

why i'm stopping my diet

As you may know, I recently went on a diet where I avoided wheat, dairy, soy and nuts. I widely read that this would help my eczema. While I was on the diet, my skin condition improved and I stopped wearing so many band aids

I suspected that my eczema was stress-related so I hoped that the Christmas break would decrease my stress levels. Over the break, it was good to catch up with friends/family who I hadn’t seen in ages, but I was constantly busy and my eczema wasn’t improving. I socialised over brekkie/lunch/dinner, but would hope for my dear life that there’d be at least one thing at the table or on the menu that I could eat. This caused me a lot of stress and anxiety. It wasn’t because my diet wasn’t like everyone else’s (my normal diet is already quite particular), but I wanted food options and for people to understand.

Avoiding wheat, dairy, soy and nuts definitely helped with my eczema… but it wasn’t enough. It was having a toll on my sanity and mental health so I realised I needed to do something else.

In mid-November 2012, I weighed 51kgs which gave me a healthy BMI and was within my standard weight range. In December-ish, I started my diet and got dizzy spells frequently. Some days, I only consumed XXX calories (according to my Android app, my recommended daily calorie intake is 1600). Bla bla bla. In early-January, my GP made me weigh myself and I had lost a lot of weight and had an underweight BMI. Basically, I lost Xkgs in about one month – probably fine for someone who is 100kgs, but not for someone of my weight. (2014 update - I took out some of the numbers as they can be triggering for some.)

The diet impacted my mental health too – I ate very little, couldn’t concentrate and was irritable. I always knew that when I’m hungry I get grumpy, but there’s a scientific explanation for this. A very low-calorie diet causes a drop in serotonin, which leads to agitation and crankiness (read here) I realised that I needed to have more fresh vegetables, meat, legumes and beans to compensate for what I didn’t want to eat.

When I got back to Canberra, I saw my GP. We talked about a range of issues and I was given a prescription for antibiotics and a very strong steroid cream – just what I was avoiding this whole time. I’m supposed to take the antibiotics for 8 days and apply the steroid cream for up to 3 weeks… It took a few days for me to get to the pharmacy, but weirdly, my eczema on my hand started to disappear. It’s like something popped up in my subconscious that said ‘Don’t worry, the universe (not the doctor) is now aware of your eczema. It will be taken care of and you will be okay’. Stress was/is probably a massive contributor to my eczema.

I need more food (and tasty food) to give me more energy and stabilise my mood, in order to better deal with other stressors in my life.

Next I’d like to do a blog entry on what it is like to omit the individual ingredients wheat, dairy, soy and nuts from your diet, things that you’d have to consider and how these ingredients are in sooo many foods we eat. This is to raise awareness of how difficult it is for coeliacs, people who are lactose-intolerant and have food allergies.

hmmm home-made donuts

I had a two-day working week and this is my first weekend for the year... it's a max of 38 degrees today and I want to get the hell out of Canberra. Then I think about the faraway holiday destinations I could go too... then I get freaked out about committing myself to plans, especially if my plans rely on other people and work. I realise the heat is probably aggravating my ever-so-useful cyclical thinking pattern, so I'm trying to focus on something else i.e. blogging.

On a side note, sitting on my computer desk is a water spray (the one that hairdressers use). I'm occasionally spraying myself with water in order to cool my body down in this bloody hot weather.

Okay, focus, blog entry.

Sometime last year, Dan and I got our chef hats on and made donuts! We used a simple and basic recipe from here. I was a bit skeptical about whether they'd work because when I was much younger I often baked bread that turned out nasty, tough and overcooked. However, the donuts that we made were delicious!! We followed most steps in the recipe, like letting the first dough mix rest and puff up. The recipe asks that after you shape your donuts into rings or balls, you let them rest again. However, we were starving at this point and skipped that. We coated the donuts in cinnamon sugar and filled some with raspberry jam. They were soo nice and fluffy and quite a treat!! The only thing I would have done differently is make the donuts smaller as the middle of some donuts weren't perfectly cooked. Nevertheless, I still enjoyed the slightly mushy texture. We had about 8 donuts between us for dinner lol.

holidays part 2

I'm back in my Canberra home after escaping to Melbourne and Sydney for xmas and NYE. It's now very hot and dry in Canberra, but I'm mostly glad to be here as there are minimal distractions and I can rest (for today at least).

My holidays were overall good. I caught up with friends and family who I hadn't seen in ages and probably talked and socialised more than I would do in two average months in Canberra. I only wish I spent more down time, away from the big cities with some peace and quiet. Oh well, I guess I can do that here.

This time I visited Sydney, I was spoilt with a wide range of tasty and healthy options in takeaway joints and restaurants. I brought my mum out to the Sydney Tower Westfield, which has a massive (and shiny) food court. The takeaway joint Mero Mero was relatively quiet but I couldn't resist the option of a DIY salad. It reminds me of a salad joint in my old uni where you could design your own salad from 20+ ingredients and was extremely popular among the students. My salad had beans, roasted vegetables etc, with a raspberry vinaigrette. The vinaigrette probably overpowered the salad, but this may be because the roasted veges already had some vinegar marinade on it,

My mum got a quinoa, haloumi and cranberry salad from the juice bar. I had some of the quinoa and it was delicious. A perfect mix of salty, sweet and crunchy goodness.

I also caught up with my friend at the Argyle Hotel Bar in the Rocks. It was filled with European tourists, but I what can I really say... it seemed that I was the only one taking pictures. We were in the bear garden/courtyard, which was a chilled, secluded and enclosed area. I got the salad with roasted veges, which was one of the tastiest salads I got recently... or I was just really hungry. The veges were fresh and there wasn't too much of any vegetable (I often find these types of dishes have too much eggplant). The salad leaves lightened up the dish as well. Only shortcoming was the lining of oil at the bottom of the dish.

It must be a trend to put dried fruit in salads. In a Woolies near a Melbourne beach, I got a cous cous salad with cranberries. This was delicious and fulfilling... then I got suspicious - does cous cous have wheat in it? A quick Google search on my phone revealed that it did. Oh well - the rest of the salad went into the compost. My eczema did get worse the next day... this could have been the wheat or the sand on the beach.

Back to work tomorrow. I wonder how long I'll last...

beginning of the holiday season with a restricted diet

The majority of my Christmas celebrations are over and I finally have some 'me' time. It's 6pm and I'm in my pjs, hiding in my bedroom and can finally hear myself think.

I imagined Christmas would be difficult as I am still avoiding wheat/gluten/dairy/soy/nuts. I knew I would be 'that' annoying person who'd hold up takeaway lines and waitresses at restaurants with a list of questions. I'd be that really difficult guest at family/friends' houses. I anticipated that everyone would hate me by the end of the holiday season.

However, I've gotten this far in my diet - I feel like I've detoxed my body from all those stuff and my eczema is slowly clearing up so I don't have to wear band aids as much. Eating any of that stuff would undo the work that I've done... and that's how I motivated myself.

Zefferelli's had a whole gluten-free menu which was an absolute god-send. I got a Chicken Valentino which was chicken breast in a sauce made of sun dried tomatoes, olive oil and caramelised onion with veges. Normally there's cream in the sauce but I requested that this omitted. There were also pine nuts that I clumsily gave to Dan, who dined with me. I also had a bit of a gluten-free garlic pizza. I was soo happy with this meal because it was the tastiest thing I had in days.

I half-lived on these muesli bars over the past few days. They have no wheat/dairy/nuts/soy.... but as they probably had a bit of sugar so I'm hoping they haven't created more harm than good.

Dan and I also baked gluten-free banana bread/cake. We used a simple recipe from the internet, substituting sugar with honey. I can't locate the recipe, but I remember it was a simple method - mixing dry ingredients with the wet ingredients. We used Orgran's all purpose plain flour which turned out to be very similar to normal flour. The cake was delicious, fluffy and tasty. In Sydney, I used to bake banana bread all the time, so I randomly crave wholesome banana bread and this did the trick. However, it was definitely best eaten on the day (moreso than other cakes) as it became very very dry over time. 

And before I cut soy out of my diet, I made a 'vege fried rice', using tamari sauce, mirin, sesame oil, ginger, and garlic to season it.

Holidays aren't over yet, and I hope my friends and family will be forgiving. I need these holidays to destress and I don't need any extra social pressure to do something I don't want.

no gluten/wheat/dairy/nuts/soy

I was talking to my old flatmate about having chronic eczema and solutions for it. At that point I was soo fed up with my skin condition. As I discussed in a previous blog entry, my eczema has been the worst it's been in my life. Flaky skin, bleeding, pus. 3 types of hydrocortisone cream and 1 natural cream. A minimum of 3 band aids each day. The eczema was on functional parts of my body (right hand, arm, face, legs and back of my ankle). All of my daily activities were affected by it e.g. I couldn't touch objects properly (hand), couldn't walk freely (foot), couldn't cross my legs (knee) or bend my left arm for extended periods of time. This was happening for 3 months, and counting.

My old housemate suggested swapping all my beauty products for certified organic stuff as that worked for her eczema. I then realised how many chemicals are in my sorbolene cream, shampoo etc that claim to be suitable for eczema and sensitive skin. I was still a bit reluctant to do the swap because I have been using these types/brand of products for years and never had a big problem. Nevertheless, I'm slowly swapping all my beauty products for more natural/organic options. In the meantime, I've decided to eliminate foods from my diet. Initially I said I'd avoid wheat, dairy and nuts for one week and for the second week, I'd do soy and dairy. So this is how I went:

Even though I have this stupid skin condition, it doesn't mean I can't keep enjoying food. Why would I punish myself and my taste buds for inheriting eczema?! At work, I usually snack on nuts and fruit. I substituted the nuts for simply more fruit. After 3 days of this, I became more lethargic, really pale in the face and moody. This raw food bar with mango, chia seeds etc allowed me to feel human again. I also popped a few iron tablets.

Having boiled veges for lunch and dinner a few days in a row made me feel like I was trying to make myself anorexic. To fill up my cranky stomach, I made myself a soy hot chocolate... I put in dairy/sugar free chocolate which makes the drink as disgusting as the chocolate tastes by itself. So, I added honey to sweeten the drink. Beautiful.

I love eating out but WOW, this week I had to do indepth research and interrogating with every takeaway store and restaurant I ate from. Celiacs would find it incredibly difficult. There's wheat/gluten in almost every Asian sauce that restaurants use and even salad dressings. One salad bar gave me a list of their gluten free options but they had nuts/dairy in them. Out of frustration, I just had a fruit juice for lunch.

My friend and I went to a sushi/ramen restaurant near ANU so I did research beforehand. I thought I'd be safe with the salmon skin sushi as I interrogated the poor girl at the counter about the dish. But when it came out, I realised the skin was was battered (contains wheat). So in fact, celiacs would only be able to eat the sashimi and edamame beans in this restaurant. Not fun at all.

I still wanted to have options for breakfast, as it's my favourite meal of the day. Luckily the Freedom Foods company makes cereals with no nuts, or wheat. This was a god send. Later in the week, I decided to add 'soy' to my food elimination list. I only realised how stupid this was when I went to Coles. People must've thought I was crazy or mentally-slow as I stood in the long-life milk section for a good 5-10 minutes just staring at the shelf. Out of the 20+ varieties, I could only drink rice milk and lactose-free milk. I've had rice milk before and it's very sweet and flowery. So lactose free milk it was.

Thankfully, parts of my eczema are now clearing up. This could be my diet or as it was cooler in Canberra this week. I don't have to wear as many band aids now and there's no blood/pus. I think I'll continue this 'diet' for as long as possible. But I hope I can eat some gluten/wheat/dairy/nuts/soy again.

People who have known me for a while may remember that I did a similar thing when I was about 14. I said I'd have no junk food for a few weeks, then I kept pushing myself and lasted for 2 years. I don't think this diet will take the same path.

turkish feast - lunch and dinner

I normally try to have different cuisines/types of food during the week. However, on this one day, I went to the Turkish Pide House in Civic for both lunch and dinner. EEEK! Work had organised a work lunch there and I couldn't refuse. My friend was coming from interstate and a Turkish dinner seemed like the obvious option, because it was a bit different from those Mod Australian cafe/restaurants in Civic. I wasn't majorly fussed cos I don't normally have Turkish, so it was like drinking water in a dessert.

For lunch, I got the salmon salad. This looked and tasted like a 'healthy-something' that I would cook myself - at least I didn't get the gross feeling I sometimes get after eating lots of Turkish meat. I was surprised there was cheese on the salad leaves though - is this common? Oh well, there went my attempt to avoid dairy food. The dish was reminiscent of cafe lunches you'd normally get in Australia so I wonder how is this dish Turkish? What is Turkish? I don't know.

We really had a feast for dinner. Between three girls, we ordered two banquets and extra falafel. Wow, it was a celebration of food and through food. The food was tasty and there were decent portions of meat, bread/dip, pizza pide. We could have had more salad but maybe that's cos two of us have diets mainly consisting of veges. The girls let me bring home all the leftovers, which lasted me two good meals. Wow!

Turkish Pide House
16 Moore Street
Civic
http://turkishpidehouses.com.au/ 

lemon & tarragon smoked chicken salad

Months ago, when my mum visited me in Canberra, we went to Poacher's Pantry in Hall. Being the foodie she is, she purchased two lots of smoked meat for the family in Sydney. I also got the smoked chicken with tarragon and lemon. I normally wouldn't buy a whole piece of expensive meat just for myself... but I wanted some variety in my diet and thought I could give some to Dan. If you didn't know, I'm a bit funny about how I eat food - I try to avoid large portions of food and try to savor what I do eat. For example, if someone gives me a wrapped piece of chocolate, I usually 'save it' til I am in the mood to eat it.

The Poachers Pantry website has a list of recipes for smoked meat from the shop: http://www.poacherspantry.com.au/recipes. I appropriated some recipes and made a salad with the smoked chicken. Not that hard at all.

In addition to the chicken, the salad had mixed salad leaves, blanched broccolini, stir fried mushrooms, grated carrot and toasted walnuts. The dressing was a concoction of lemon juice, olive oil and crushed roasted garlic. I have a tendency to stuff up food when I know I'm making it for someone else (damn those high self-expectations) so I made it for myself first then packed it into a million separate containers for Dan's lunch the next day. I felt like a school mum :S

Overall, the salad was good. The chicken was tasty but had a weird rubbery texture (probably due to being smoked). I put half a packet of chicken into one salad, which was probably too much but oh well. It looked delicious and health though!

canberra ramblings

The weather in Canberra is sooo dry. Without fail, in the Spring months of each year, I get eczema and hay fever. However, this year has been the worst my eczema has ever been. I know people aren't supposed to put band aids on their eczema, but there was puss coming out (eww). If I didn't have band aids on and handled a simple thing such as bed sheets, my hand would start bleeding in a few minutes.

Over a few months, I used natural and pharmaceutical eczema cream (the latter has hydro cortisone which is known to be bad for your body), and antiseptic cream. I also avoided foods that are apparently triggers of these allergies, like dairy. A dairy free diet wasn't too bad - I could still enjoy a hot chocolate but with soy milk (which I'm used to), melted dark chocolate (such as Lindt's 70% dark choc which is dairy free) and honey. This was bliss.

Anyway, I'm currently in an introspective mood, so I'm gonna let myself vent then I will return to food blogging. Canberra's dry environment is incompatible with my body - this frustration adds to my fleeting resentment of Canberra. At the worst, I find Canberra isolating. For weeks, I may only speak to 1-2 good friends. I become a slave to work and there is little thinking/activities outside this realm.

Although I'm not fully satisfied with Canberra, it doesn't mean I'll be moving back to Sydney any time soon. Initially, I found it novel to be away from my friends and family as I'd speak to them on the phone, on Facebook and they'd visit me. Now, I forgot how how these relationships worked. How did we interact? How comfortable did I feel? Do we still have similarities?

If I left Canberra tomorrow, I'm not sure what I'd do. I could travel overseas, visit some of my friends interstate, go to the NT, work in an NGO, do a Masters degree. There are many options... however, knowing me I'll still do everything that I aspire to do - it's just the order/timing that would vary.

accidentally vegan in melbourne

I am currently taking some down time after a week long trip to Melbourne. Although Melbourne or any big city isn't really a place to 'relax', I am happy that I got some time off work and escaped the monotony of Canberra.

It took Dan and I 8+ hours to get from Canberra to Melbourne by road (he drove the whole journey!). Sitting in the passenger seat, I ate (or squished in my mouth) half a packet of blueberries. This left an odd but surely attractive blue tint on my tongue. If you eat anything, you might as well 'explore' the textures of your food and play with it.

One thing that I loved about my holiday was that one of my Sydney friends was in Melbourne for the weekend. This gave me the opportunity me to do things in Melbourne that most guys would hate you for -  stroll along a street eating, drinking, gossiping and shopping for a whole day. 

On Brunswick Street, we came across Merry Cupcakes, a little cute and friendly store. For morning tea, my friend and I shared a peanut butter and jelly cupcake. The cake part was delicious, moist and didn't have that  odd starchy texture that many commercial cupcakes have when you finish it. The peanut was a cute addition to the icing and the jam in the centre was delicious. I expected a stronger peanut taste though. I only realised it was a vegan cupcake store when I surfed the net for this blog. Good job to the cafe!

Based on a recommendation, my friend and I went to the Vegie Bar on Brunswick Street for lunch. I was excited for this for several reasons - I find it hard to drag my Canberra friends to vego cafes (they are sceptical) and vego cafes are hard to come across in Canberra. We got gyoza dumplings for our entree which had some sort of red bean in it. Different but nice. I got the raw vege stack for my main. I thought if I was to eat vegan food, i might as well go a step further and choose something raw. It was actually tasty and nothing like those raw soups I made for myself when I was younger. Score!

I am also stoked that I finally got myself to Melbourne. You see, I had a best friend who passed away years ago. We planned to travel to Melbourne just before she died. Over the past few years, I never got around to it because I was caught up grieving and my plans with other friends fell through. Eventually I felt better about her death etc and I thought I'd be all fine to travel there whenever I wanted. However, I only realised in the past year that it was harder than I expected. When I flew for work, the plane would often stopover in Melbourne and I'd get minor panic attacks etc. I was surprised and annoyed at myself... Soo I put myself on a mission to confront this crap and go to Melbourne before the end of the year... and I did it without freaking out!